In the light of this new life stress and pandemic crisis, I realize that God was preparing me for this very moment in time. Over the past 2 years, I have been evolving and learning to deal with my constant stress state. Most people don’t realize the constant stress and anxiety that I have been living in my whole life. And the case is the same for anyone with a chronic health issues, genetic disease or chronic illness. I never thought that I would be sharing my story of triumph over a debilitating genetic condition but here I am. I never thought that I could learn to relax and release stress to reduce my physical symptoms, pain and stress but here I am. I never thought that I could support others to deal with stress, illness, digestive issues and grief but here I am. And this past year, I have done that and more. And I never thought that I would use my techniques to help me deal with the stress of claustrophobia in a pandemic, and yet here I am.
Most people don’t realize that my body has been under constant stress since childhood. Most people don’t realize that their stress reaches their children. Most people don’t realize that to truly tackle stress and calm the nervous system you need to address the subconscious mind. We all have a Negative Nancy or Negative Norm with in our minds. But there is power in transforming those negative thoughts into the positive. Trust me I was a skeptic at first. Shit I have been pushing through my negative thoughts and fears for years. I push through them everyday to write an article, post a video or be my authentic self. But the beautiful gift I learned in the process is that working on your Negative Nancy and Negative Norm actually impacts everyone around you. Have you ever noticed when you enter a room with a Super Negative person, your mood completely plummets? Have you ever noticed that when a high energy happy friend calls you, your energy and mood skyrockets?
Well the same thing happens inside YOUR home. If you are stressed, anxious and overwhelmed your children feel it. If you are stressed, anxious and overwhelmed your family feels it. If you are stressed out your customers, colleagues, partners and the world around you feels it. It isn’t hard to shift that Negative voice but it does take a little time and effort. And in the midst of this crisis we all have extra time to evolve and grow in our stress reduction practices. We all have more time inside our homes. We all have more time with those we love. And to truly value that time and soak in the delicious goodness of these quiet times we need to go within. Trust me I am beyond scared to have to wear that Hazmat suit and care for patients. But I am ready for the task. I was brought to this world to help people who are ill, anxious, stressed and overwhelmed. And I know it because that has been my life experiences up until now. I have become an autoimmune warrior, chronic pain survivor, chronic illness guru, digestive health prophet and so much more. And it was all preparing me to help others in this time of great stress and anxiety.
Trust me I have been avoiding my gifts for a long time. I have been too scared to share videos of meditations and hypnosis. I have been to scared to show the world that you can truly transform your stress and impact those around you. But I learned this special fact at home. Over the past year, I published a book, The Truth about IBS and Anxiety, and in that time I also wrote a children’s book to help my son with anxiety, sensory overload and stopping the stress response. And the book has been sitting in my computer because I was too scared to show the world the truth. And now in this moment of extreme stress I realize the injustice I am doing by not being authentic. So today, I will finally get out of my own way and share my gifts and secrets in a special Support Group for this Crisis. I will share simple bonding and stress relief techniques for mom’s to reduce their stress and support their children. The strategies I teach have astounded my physicians, they have no idea how I have been able to stop my frequent infections, pain, migraines, chronic lung issues and more… They are completely surprised because this is not something that is taught in nursing or medical school. This practice is something I learned by going within and learning my own body using the scientific background from my nursing career to hack my immune system and nervous system. Yesterday, my colleague and the founder of the non-profit Family Friendly Hands, came to me asking for a live to support families. Trust me I was scared shitless to share my gifts and story on social media, yet here I am. And yesterday, I recorded a healing audio on Facebook despite my own internal stress and resistance. And today, in the midst of all the chaos and stress, I will go LIVE with Elsa Murguia Clarke to support the community and families with special needs children. And I will continue to push through my fears and anxieties to support the community with COVID-19 inside the Hospital and Outside. Why? Because inside the Hospital my role is to support families as they receive these results positive or negative. And in the community my role is to help people slow down their nervous system, boost their immune system and release stress.
This is a vital role I play because the ones that are impacted the most by our stress is our children. Trust me I didn’t want to believe it either. But I lived a life of chronic illness, anxiety and digestive issues. And it all began in my childhood. As an empath, I was born with special gifts to sense stress in those around me. And many of our special needs children and regular children have the same gifts. And our stress reaches all of them. Let me tell you a story, when I was a little girl my mom was always under stress, she had chronic illness, chronic pain and anxiety. And the days she saw her mom the stress would multiply because her mom was a Negative Nancy. I love my grandma but the fact is she didn’t know how to cope with her predominantly negative mind and it impacted her physical health. Well that stress and tension crossed the generations to me. And I have been learning to deal with those special empathic gifts over the past 7 years. And finally, I am ready to teach people that you can reduce stress, improve your mood, calm your nervous system and boost your immune system. And I know it because I proven it at home, with my children and with my clients. So if you want to learn to calm and relax in the midst of this chaos, join the movement I am creating inside my support group. I’m here to support you through this stress. Join my free Facebook group Unleash Your Inner Strength to an exclusive video I will share today, The proof your kids feel your stress.
What is empathy? Empathy is a sense of understanding the feelings and experiences of another person. Many of us are empathetic towards our friends, coworkers or family members experiences. And we have some form of empathy this sense of every day in conversations or communication with others. We may even experience empathy watching a movie, TV show or listening to a song. There are many unique individuals that choose to live a life of empathy and service to others. Those special individuals live a life of service in one form or another to better the lives of the world around them. They often choose their profession because of their high sense of empathy and compassion towards others. These loving individuals in the health care or service profession experience more empathic situations than others do because of their work environment. For example, my profession healthcare (nurses, doctors, EMT, Medical Assistants, Fire fighters, etc.) experience much more empathy because their career choice is founded on helping others. Every day they care for patients facing health challenges and they serve them in their role. Each of their patients is facing unique experiences that involve some form of physical or emotional pain. The healthcare workers role is empathic in and of itself, simply by their conscious decision to help others. Many health care workers may experience added stress or health issues because of their career choice and the way they process these experiences.
And yet there are still people that experience an extreme sense of empathy. This highly exclusive gift is almost impossible for others to understand. They experience empathy at a cellular level throughout their entire body. You can’t imagine feeling this form of empathy unless you experience it first-hand. Those enlightened individuals are empath’s and they feel exponentially more than everyone around them. Empath’s are individuals with a gift of hypersensitivity. Some may call it a curse but I call it a gift. Of course to reach this point of awareness and acceptance was quite a journey for me and those around me. Empath’s are hypersensitive to the feelings, thoughts, pains and emotions of others. That little fact was even hard for me to understand even-though I had an intuitive feeling lingering in my mind for a long time. The interesting fact is that many empaths (hypersensitive people) don’t even realize the extent of their empathy or the toll it can take on their own health. For instance my career paths have always lead me to a trajectory of caring for others in various roles and environments. My careers gradually transitioned and transformed from one career into the next in the service realm. Every career choice was a compassionate one: Special Education Teacher, Nursing Assistant, Registered Nurse, Health Coach, Hypnotist and now Transformational Author. These are all careers based on supporting the community by nurturing, caring, and loving others. All of these career choices were based on love and a hope to make a difference. They were each an opportunity to improve the lives of those around me. I acknowledged my empath gift a few years ago but didn’t understand its true impact. I had NO idea the significant role it played in my own emotional and physical wellbeing. I had seen a rollercoaster decline in my health and happiness but had no idea my empathic gift was the culprit. And truly it wasn’t the culprit at ALL now that I understand my gift. The cause of my health decline was my lack of understanding and preparation to live with my special gift. After all we may be born empathic but the cultivation of a deep connection with Your Inner Strength takes time. It was my lack of knowledge that caused me to fail at meeting my own basic human needs. It was a lack of self-loving, self-care practices that was my downfall. It was my lack of knowledge about self-protection that truly opened my eyes.
Imagine a person that is so open and willing to help others every second of everyday. They are so willing that they do this subconsciously all day long, 365 days a year, over and over again. And I mean in the moment and every moment. It could be a text message, phone call, face to face conversation or care-giver relationship. You name the situation and my body was ready to tackle it. And I had no idea it was happening for almost 38 years. I was effortlessly absorbing feelings, thoughts, emotions, pain and experiences of those around me. I absolutely mean absorb because that is what empaths do. And that is exactly what I used to do every day. I was completely oblivious and unaware it was happening. I did it with patients, complete stranger, friends, family members, co-worker, etc. It didn’t matter who it was if they were in pain I was ready to fix them or give them a little relief. The true awakening began when I noticed TV shows and movies triggered intense feelings.
Hypersensitive people are extremely sensitive to the energetic vibrations, emotions, thoughts and feelings of others. This weird phenomena can actually allow them to absorb the feelings, thoughts and emotions of others into their bodies. I know it sounds crazy because until I experienced it for myself I thought it was a crazy too. Then I started to feel intense emotions during movies and TV shows. The most significant experiences I had were watching Game of Thrones or other violent shows. And the most traumatic scenes in the first few episodes of Game of Thrones were the hardest for me to handle. I could feel the good, the bad and the ugly. I could feel everything as if it was happening to me. I could see the pain in Kalisi’s eyes as her new husband raped her. I could feel her pain when her brother treated her like garbage. It wasn’t always negative or bad. I felt the good ones too. I could feel her love transform into something new for her husband. And when I say feel, I mean my heart would race, my blood would boil, the emotions would pop into my head and fill my entire body. I could feel her fear; her shame and it took a lot of work to be able to watch the few episodes that I did. We tried to watch it years ago but it was too violent and at that point I hadn’t established a self-love routine. This past year we tried to watch it again and every time those rough and tough emotions came up I practiced my own routine on the couch amidst the chaotic show. Yep, I changed my breathing pattern, I chanted affirmations in my mind, I practiced my stretching and relaxation techniques to release those emotions that had entered me. It was an exhausting process and eventually we stopped watching the show. I truly thought it was an amazing show but it was a lot of work to stay relaxed and calm because I hadn’t learned how to protect myself yet.
After this phenomena, I was more aware of feelings and emotions in my body. I started to feel weird sensations in my body during conversations with friends, coworkers and family members. I began experiencing pain in areas that had been pain free for years. Random pains would emerge once again. Sometimes the pain would vanish after some self-love routines and others would last for days or even weeks. You see I still hadn’t learned a crucial element to prevent or limit this phenomenon. And truly this little crucial element is beneficial to everyone not only empaths because it promotes your own resiliency by building your own inner strength.
Have you ever had a conversation and suddenly your head hurts? Or Your shoulders tense up? or You get a sharp pain in your stomach? Once, I started to put things together and realize this was my reality I began to ask myself questions. Why does my back hurt? What is the message my body is sending? Suddenly, I started to ask myself a lot of questions. This little practice began several months ago. I began to see patterns with friends, family and strangers. I realized that many pains that arouse in my body were not mine: back pain, shoulder pain or headache. I’m not sure if they experienced any relief but suddenly after the conversation ended, I had their pain too. Some might say its psychological, you are imagining it but I wasn’t. They didn’t tell me they were in pain, I wasn’t assessing them as a nurse does, yet boom it came. Then later on in the day they would mention they had a headache or their right shoulder hurt and it confirmed what my intuition had already told me. And when I say I had pain I mean it. My muscles were tight and tender, I was less flexible. My muscles would making popping and snapping noises and activities became harder to perform. Let’s just say the things I had worked so hard to relieve started pilling back up again. My arm pain or back pain would be debilitating once again.
It would happen suddenly in the middle of a conversation, my neck suddenly tightened and tensed up causing a radiating pain. Then I would take some time to meditate, breath and relax. I would ask myself. Is this my pain mine or someone else’s? Boom, a name would pop into my head. Then I would think about the conversation and any visual cues I had received. Maybe the person was rubbing their neck or told me they had a headache. I usually didn’t know they were in pain during the conversation. Mysteriously symptoms would arise all the time out of absolutely thin air. It helped me understand a little more why working bedside in the Pediatric Emergency Room was so difficult for me. Being such a loving person and trying to heal the pain of those beautiful little children had eventually taken a toll so huge that I had to leave them behind. But I hadn’t figured this out until now. And I left bedside nursing more than 9 years ago because I left when my oldest was little. You see I have been taking care of myself for years already and my chronic pain is pretty much non-existent. I literally had to give up bedside care because my body couldn’t take it and my doctor was worried I was going to die if it continued. Fast forward to this year, I am aware that I can feel these intense emotions and am creating a routine to relax and calm but I’m still missing a key element protection. I get flare ups here and there but the extent of my pain is never close to what it was 6 or 7 years ago. Then I travel to Hawaii with my family. People that I love more than anything in the world. People that I would give my life for and obviously if I absorb the pain of strangers my body was open and ready to take on their pain too. Traveling in a group is always stressful. We all know that it’s hard to please everyone and I always try to please everyone. So I did, I used my ho’oponopono and my self-loving practices blessing everyone in my family. I blessed them all every single one of them all day long. If there was a family argument I blessed them. If the kids were fighting I blessed them. If we couldn’t agree on a tour, I blessed them. If we were in a car for a long time and tension was running high, I blessed them. I thought I was helping myself in the process that the blessings would help me remain peaceful, calm and protected. They helped me stay peaceful and calm but I definitely wasn’t protected. Each day I was exhausted and drained. I would fall asleep early and wake up exhausted. I didn’t realize I was missing some crucial steps in my process until I returned from Hawaii and read a book that arrived as a gift from my Publisher. Ramses Rodriguez’s book “Stop Pressing Your Own Panic Button” opened my eyes to my gift. It also brought to light a doctor that has my special gift. She has dedicated her career to help people understand their gift and protect themselves. Dr. Judith Orloff wrote the “The Empath’s Survival Guide” really opened my eyes. I began to listen to her book on audible and them progressed to purchasing her program for additional insight. And suddenly it all made sense, the exhaustion and the desire to rush home early from Paradise. By the end of my trip to Hawaii, I was exhausted, drained and overwhelmed. The lack of protection for myself caused me to feel completely overwhelmed and snappy. I was snapping at people, grumpy and making hasty decisions because I just couldn’t take any more stress. I had spent the entire trip blessing everyone around me and had lost myself. I had lost my happy, positive attitude and upbeat personality. I was at complete exhaustion and the only thing I could think about was getting home. I still oblivious of my true gifts and the impact it was having on my own health. I hadn’t developed a protection routine for myself because I didn’t know I needed one. I was still taking on the emotions, thoughts, pains and energies of everyone around me even though I didn’t want to. And thus my Empath awakening happened. It has been a few weeks since we returned from that spectacular trip that enlightened me to the true powers of my gifts. It also helped me realize the importance of creating a routine for myself that truly gave me resilience and happiness. The funny thing I learned along the way is these little routines that I have are not only beneficial to me but everyone around me. This week a course came into my email at Baptist called “Highly Resilient Nurses” that cemented this little fact in my mind. The course spoke of some of the practices I have developed for myself over the past few years. My practice is still significantly different than anything I have encountered out in the world. But I realize now that I am on the right path and that Hawaii was the trip that brought my true awakening to light. After all we all need to fall to stand up again. We all need to crawl to walk. We all need to hurt to heal. So now it’s time to write the Transformation book I was born to write.
So Here is a little gift. I created it for all those empath’s out there. Those Special people like me that feel more than the rest. Those people that have a unique gift and were born to help the world around them. And maybe even live in the health care world like I do. Take time for yourself to listen and relax before you begin your day. Create a sense of protection for yourself every morning. This practice of self-love will make your day Fabulous. Blessings and Joy to all of you. Click the image below to list to the Meditation.
The best day in Hawaii was definitely our Rappel day in Maui. It was our only alone time together during our family vacation. We spent the day laughing and pushing our limits in the Forest. It was a very peaceful day with the boys. By far this quiet and adventurous day in Maui was a bonding experience for all of us. It was just us and two other guests on the tour that day. The Rappel venue was in a picturesque and peaceful landscape in Maui. It was a an amazing picturesque drive through the windy two lane highway up the mountain coast towards Hana. We enjoyed ourselves learning about the history of Maui during the car ride up to the venue. The road was impressive with only two lanes following the twists and turns of the mountain side. The views were spectacular with beautiful scenery all the way to the Rappel site. We enjoyed the conversations and adventures with our tour guides and fellow guests. This spectacular adventure with Rappel Maui was an enlightening experience. It was a quiet day of bonding and adventure for our little family. We enjoyed quiet time in the lush landscapes of Maui. Kate and Chris were very knowledgeable and experienced tour guides. We felt safe the entire time we walked through the forest and Rappel down the waterfalls. Lucas is a rock climber here in Miami and the Rappel tour was an adventure aligned with his passion. Gabriel enjoyed the experience too. It wasn’t any easy task to maneuver. It tests you physically and mentally to put all your trust your skills in such an intense environment. I have never tried an adventure like this before. I rock climb occasionally in Miami but it isn’t the easiest task for me. It can be scary to trust the safety equipment and let go of your fears. Standing at the top of the cliffs is an enlightening and scary experience. Standing at the edge of the cliff looking down tests your mind and body. Fear can easily set in if you allow it to take over. Thankfully my sense of adventure and resilience kept me calm and relaxed. I was excited to push my own limits because the old me never would have been able to accomplish this physically and mentally intense adventure. The old me never would have attempted such a challenging tour because chronic pain and illness had left me with limited strength and physical abilities. I knew this tour was a test of my physical and mental resilience from the moment I booked it. I worked hard to regain my physical strength over the past 6 years to push my limits in Hawaii. Before the first climb I was talking to Luis one of the guests about the significance of this tour for me. I told him the old me 6 years ago would never have been able to physically deal with the challenges of this tour. I worked hard to regain my mobility, flexibility and overcome my chronic pain. It was a huge accomplishment in my life and this tour was truly going to tackle those last little fears I was holding. Hawaii had a bunch of adventurous tours and my journey had brought me here to finally prove to my subconscious that I am strong, powerful and ready for anything. I was truly ready for it all. Ready to tackle the physical and mental tasks the tour would bring. The first fear was trusting the equipment and allowing myself to lean into it. My first Rappel landed me on my stomach on a cushion as I mastered this little task. But I got up quickly and climbed down ready to tackle the waterfalls. The equipment was all set up and everyone was securely tied throughout our walk and Rappel through the forest. When we arrived at the first waterfall things really started to get real. It was a spectacular view of the forest and top of the waterfall. We each took our turns slowly Rappelling down the cliff. I was super calm and relaxed as I watched Gabriel begin his first waterfall. I didn’t expect what happened next but I knew that he was safe. I also knew that I was strong and capable of keeping calm and relaxed through it all. Gabriel slipped at the top of the waterfall briefly. He was tied up laying on top of the waterfall with his feet dangling of the cliffs edge. I knew the equipment was safe and secure. Chris was next to him the entire time talking and guiding him through it. I trusted his expertise to get Gabriel (my baby) out of his predicament. None the less it was still a scary experience watching Gabriel dangle at the edge of the waterfall. I took a deep breath and focused on my inner calm as I watched Gabriel get back up and secure his stance again. I continued to breath as he Rappelled down the waterfall. My heart was racing as I watched Gabriel regain his footing and push his limits safely down the cliff. I kept myself calm and centered through the experience but I’m sure the fear was evident in my face. Once he was safely at the bottom it was time for Lucas to follow in his path. My little Lucas had waited months for this little adventure. I could see the excitement in his eyes as he began his descent down the waterfall. He is a tiny little guy but strong and adventurous. He enjoyed every moment of the tour to the fullest. It was equally scary watching my little bundle of joy Rappel down the mountain but he did it effortlessly with a huge smile. Then it was my turn. It was time to test my physical and mental resilience to the fullest. My first cliff Rappel experience wasn’t easy but I was determined to go down the waterfall safely and efficiently. I used my own breathing and centering techniques while I pushed my physical limits. I slowly and meticulously pushed my butt back secured my stance and climbed slowly down the watery rocks. It was intense and I didn’t want to look down. Looking up at the photographer was scary too but I rocked it!!! The tour guides actually told me that I smoothly Rappelled down the waterfalls better than the boys did. Kate and Chris could hear my breathing and told me they liked it. I was actually using self-hypnosis, positive self-talk and breath work throughout the whole descent down the cliff. I’ve become comfortable with my weird breathing patterns and don’t worry what others think about it. It didn’t matter to me if others were listening or thought I was weird. The slow deep breaths kept me focused and calm during the adventurous tour. I used different techniques throughout the day. Sometimes people can notice and sometimes they can’t. I’ve learned to honor the way I feel and do what I need regardless of the views the world may have of me. Honestly most of the time people don’t notice or care much about what you do. We tend to worry about these things excessively for no reason. It was a spectacular day immersed in the forest of Maui. We enjoyed the peace and quiet as we watched each other Rappel. We jumped into the cool spring water after each waterfall. The boys saw crayfish and shrimp in the water pools. It was by far the best day in Hawaii. We experienced thrills and excitement while be bonded together. It was amazing to spend a quiet day alone in nature with my boys. I will remember Maui forever.
Some days are filled with challenges or obstacles. They can be internal or external. The external ones impact our body in many ways. Some of us get headaches, chest pain, shortness of breath, etc. There are many physical responses that happen when you are stuck in Fear. They are all due to our bodies fight or flight response. It happens in the moment and it is intense. It could happen for many different reasons and in many different situations. It could be a confrontation by a superior or elder. It could be a conversation that made you upset. It could be a TV show that triggered some emotions. But the fact is that they all stem from the subconscious beliefs we made in childhood. It was based on our experiences and lack of coping mechanisms. We simply were never taught how to deal with our emotions: anger, sadness, fear, worry, shame, guilt, etc. We had no idea what to do with them. And the way we dealt with these challenges before impacts the way we react now. The interesting fact I learned this past year is that you can Thrive in Your life. The tricky part that most people don’t realize is that it requires an investment in self-improvement and development. Yes, that’s right, an investment in YOURSELF. You can make little changes here and there by reading books and taking free courses but you still feel stuck. The shift just doesn’t happen because your subconscious still doesn’t believe you Really DESIRE the change. Trust me I’ve felt it and I’ve been there multiple times. You take two steps forward thinking you are on top of the world, just to fall back on your ass when the next obstacle hits. Yep, exactly you read a book and started to change the way you react to confrontation. You are doing well and then suddenly someone you absolutely love and admire, throws you a curveball and boom you are back to square one. Your body responds once again with a deep sense of Fear and the fight or flight response happens again and again. Then one day I decided to truly get out of my comfort zone and surround myself with powerful, successful business women and entrepreneurs. They were women I admired and honor for their courage and accomplishments. Women that have overcome hardships and turmoil to get to where they are and I realized that was exactly what I needed. It took time and investments to make the shift in my life but it all focused on Self-Development and Self-Improvement. And when I speak of an Investment, I mean monetary investment and time. The truth about psychology of the mind is that if there isn’t a monetary contribution then You won’t make time and truly invest in the transformation. So I did, I took a leap, I cried and second guessed myself many times but in the end I took a leap. I took the leap because I deserved better than the life I was living. My family deserved the best version of me. I had worked on improving my health for 6 years but the anxiety was still there. I had to work on that subconscious and I had to actively get out of my comfort zone. And the investment simply motivates and pushes you to do it. I attended networking meetings, weekly meetings, coaching courses and online programs. Each activity brought me a step closer to where I wanted to be. Nothing worth achieving is Easy. Nothing worth earning is FREE. You need to put the time, money and effort into your Transformation. And I did, just that and it finally stuck. And I know it stuck because I finally took action for myself regardless of the obstacles that came my way. I finally didn’t let a confrontation, conversation or challenge stop me in my tracks. I used everything I learned through my health journey and my personal improvement to transform myself. That meant actively responding to my self-Awareness and taking Action. Then suddenly everything fell into place. Obstacles came and went but I kept moving forward. Confrontation made me uncomfortable and I took action. Taking action through awareness means feeling your emotions and sitting with them. Then the true Action happens, using everything you’ve learned and practiced to regain your composure, focus, commitment and drive. That’s right, you get down and dirty to fix the problem in the moment. That’s when you feel the SHIFT. You notice that conversation didn’t bother your quite as much as before. Your notice the self-care and self-love you invested in the moment worked. You realize that you are actively creating again and that your future is coming. This only happens when you are ALL into the Change you Desire. When you desire change and truly want to transform then you will achieve it. But first you need to Invest in yourself and Your personal development. Then everything will fall into place exactly how you desire. You can THRIVE in LIFE when YOU INVEST in YOURSELF. That’s right, Imagine you are Thriving. FEEL NATURALLY AMAZING with a little self loving and nurturing for YOU. Sounds to good to be true. Nope it is Powerful and Achievable.
Some people need a visual of how Awareness and Action works. Here it is: A few weeks ago I woke up completely exhausted and unmotivated for anything. It was time to go to work and get things done, so I needed to suck it up and move Right. But remember this, I woke up like a zombie. I drove to work like a zombie in autopilot. I had zero energy, my eyes were droopy and I felt like I hadn’t slept in weeks. I was completely drained and unmotivated to work or even think. I need to act quickly to shift things. Which meant taking ACTION to switch from a snail pace to a Productive and Powerful day. Then, I took ACTION: I stumbled out of the car to grab some things from the back of the car (yoga mat, Kasina glasses, sound bowls and ear buds). I Stumbled to the lake like a sleepy kid to Meditate, Breath and Rejuvenate. I set everything up and laid down. I put in my ear buds and Kasina lenses to stimulate alpha waves. I used the techniques I have developed over the year to relax, unwind and focus. I Listened to a meditation (made specifically for me), practiced my relaxation techniques and 20 min later…I was ENERGIZED and feeling FANTASTIC. One funny thing happened in the middle of this little relaxation session that could have thrown me into Fear and Worry. An employee at the Hospital actually thought something was wrong with me. Remember all my senses were involved so I didn’t hear or feel him approaching. When he said, “Excuse me man, Are you ok?” I heard him and lifted the glasses up. LMAO I actually screamed. I am someone that startles easily so thinking back that poor man must have freaked out. I told him I was fine and jumped back in for the last few minutes. My heart slowly slowed its pace, my breath relaxed and my body settled once again. I finished my routine and I was Vibrant, Motivated and Energized. The obstacle that happened didn’t stop me from my goal of getting back in my groove. You can THRIVE IN LIFE with more Self-love, Positivity and Nurturing. You are POWERFUL.
School stress is a normal part of life, Right? I am not the only person that got anxious for tests or presentations. I am not the only person that developed an upset stomach during Final exams. Have you ever had to rush out of an exam to explode in the bathroom? Yep literally, my stress and anxiety caused severe IBS. It was always an issue since at least 8th grade. I bet if you are reading this now, at some point in your life you remember a time during your education where STRESS was on your mind and evident in your BODY. Maybe it was a teacher that spoke to you in a negative way or put you down. Maybe it was an obstacle you faced early on in your education that caused you to loose a little self-confidence or created a little self-doubt. Maybe, your parents were very strict and expected perfect grades adding extra pressure to an already stressful experience. The cause of the stress response is usually related to a deeply engrained emotional reaction in you subconscious mind. Trust me, I had no idea this was possible until almost a year ago. I thought anxiety was a perfectly normal part of life. I though that it was just my way of dealing with school. It was normal for me to study my butt off, know everything by heart and blank out on a test. It was normal for me to second guess myself and switch the answer on the test. Then I would spend nights worrying some more after the test was over. And then reviewing tests, I began to recognize a pattern over the years. My gut first answer was usually right but I always managed to second guess myself and change it.
Looking back now, I realize that my insecurities were linked to my learning disabilities and family history of learning disabilities. I developed this fear of school that progressively got worse over time. I developed a sense of self-doubt and worry that impacted me throughout my career. I didn’t let it stop me though, I pushed through and managed to graduate High-School with honors. I pushed through it, over and over again. Two careers and Master’s education didn’t seem to stop me but deep down the insecurities blocked me from finding my true purpose. Some how, I managed to graduate with honors time after time but the impact on my body was pretty catastrophic over the years. The Negative thoughts impacted me during my Master’s degree to a point of absolute panic. I actually remember a day where my research paper completely vanished off my computer. The file vanished. AHHH! Seriously, it completely disappeared a few minutes before the submission deadline. My stress and anxiety hit me hard and fast. It felt like a kick in my chest. Fear overwhelmed me and worry made me feel helpless. I dropped down to the floor in a panic and cried uncontrollably until thankfully my husband found it. I had never experienced such an intense stress response before. It was the peak of my chronic illness, anxiety and stress. It was my worst panic to date and I thought I was doomed but everything worked out. Thankfully, as I mentioned before I was a great student and my paper was amazing. Somehow, I surpassed my own internal fears and worry to graduate with honors, once again. But these embedded childhood challenges continued to arise throughout my life. Self-doubt, fear and worry would impact me in all aspects of life. I finally decided something had to shift. I realized that these negative feelings were not aligned with my path in life. I had succeeded and overcome so much, it was time for my mind to catch up and wake up. It was time to shift this crazy negative mindset and leave the past in the past. It was time to believe in myself and release the past. No one deserves to live a life of self-doubt, worry and fear. Everyone deserves to THRIVE NATURALLY in their own skin. Everything fell into place at the right moment in time. I was READY. I was willing. And I was dedicated to finding my path. INVEST in YOURSELF. You deserve to THRIVE. You deserve to feel Healthy. You deserve to feel Prosperous too.